pisau cukur

if you can relate.

i knew we were both in mortal danger,
Still, in that instant, i felt well. Whole.
I could feel my heart racing in my chest,
the blood pulsing hot and fast trough my vein again.
My lung feel with the sweet scent that came off his skin.
it was like there have never been any whole in my chest.

I was perfect- not healed , but as if there had never been any wound in the first place.

new moon.

somehow speak my language.

rain and rainbow

i will always keep reminding myself that this is just temporary..

i believe someday happiness will wash away my pain..

i just have to wait for the moment to come..

so i knock the deepest bottom of my heart and

whisper.

"it is just mind over matter and i am strong"

girl, you should know.

it's funny because you don't understand the word BOUNDARY so well and i am gonna explain to you right here, right now!

first, it's not okay to lie to your friend when she asked you the truth at the first place.

second, it's bad to sneak around doing inappropriate things when there is huge possibilility that i may find out. and when i do it will be ugly.

third, i know what u did that you hide from me, but you let my boyfriend know? woooo.... wonder where that come from?

you know what?

i don't care with who you wanna sleep, how deep your cleavage you wanna show to the world, how short your pants are because i know i am not a good person either. i know im a bad person too.

but i don't mess up with your life why do you mess up with mine, girlfriend?

maybe you didn't realize, u hurt me. you can always find me if you wanna talk and explain because i believe you know who you are.

saya pemaaf orangnya.

puisi sepi

Bisik ku pada bulan
Kembalikan temanku

Kekasihku, syurgaku

Tanpa dia malam menemaniku
Sepi memelukku

Bulan jangan biar siang biar malam ini kelam

Biar ia sepi sepertiku


beautiful words

skeleton in the closet atau jerangkung di dalam almari.

my friends is for the past, present and future.
but if certain people choose to be the past,
what more can i say?

u want it, u got it, and i hope you're happy with it.
because im not. i hate knowing that i have unsettled business with "some people"..
u know.. "some people"

if you do have issue with me, please dont pretend like you dont.
spill it out.

i don't have the guts to make friends now because im soo scared the same thing will happen again.
im traumatised
im afraid that im not good enough.

ami.. i need a warm-girlfriend-hug right now.
:(

:(

crush and burn.
test chem :(
do better. do better. work harder!!